Frustrated by lack of understanding

It's not easy doing what I do. I try my best but sometimes things happen beyond my control. A slip of the tongue, a wrong action, a lack of courage to say/do the right thing causes the best laid plans to be tripped up. Forgive me but I lack the courage to stand up to you. I worry too much abt the present and fear too much the future. I hope I have stepped up to the plate and done well enough but sometimes, it seems such a thankless job. However, I resolve to never quit because the ups have given me some of the best times in my life. And I swear it's a thing of beauty when things come together to create such a harmony. When everything feels so right, only time can spoil it.

Why can't you see how I feel?

Am I to go on without you?

The depressing thing is you're probably too wrapped up to care much. And no, things aren't always as they seem. Damn, I should tell myself that more often.