Abt nothing...

These days, I'm finding it a struggle to write anything. I'm confused by the actions and words by the people in my life. As much as I love them, sometimes the things they say go abit too far especially if it makes me feel inferior or think less of myself. I personally feel I care too much what others think of me...it really frustrates me to be affected so much by what I think the other person is thinking. Of course, my actions sometimes provide much ammunition but it's my choice to act the fool and I can live with that decision. I don't need any apologises or promises, all I need is a smile to assure me that you're joking. I can live with that.

I may seem too sensitive but I assure you I can still take a joke. I assume my guy friends will wonder why I'm being so open about myself, but it's because I'm comfortable with it. I know I will never be the sort that exudes charm or be cool. This is who I am and I'm glad I've been true to myself these years. Why should I be ashamed of who I am? I may not always say the right thing and I'm still learning alot of what I should already know. I'm awkward, brash, ignorant, stubborn...but I'm only human.

Haha, this has been strangely liberating. I think I feel better now...it's a beautiful day with big clouds floating in the sky. Sadly, there isn't much of a view from my desk but there is a nice one of the sea from the walkway to the stairwell. I'll post it once I get home. Consider this before you go: Would you prefer to touch a cloud, smell a rainbow, see the wind or taste the sun?